"Please know I still need you." Sometimes I whisper these six words under my breath after you've walked away or after we hang up from a phone call.
There are nights where I cry myself to sleep holding these feelings in, and there are early mornings where I start my day feeling stressed the second my eyes open, and am simply thinking it. And sadly, there are other times I feel so alone and helpless and expect you to read my mind and know I need your help.
Please know I still need you.
Yes, I'm a seasoned mom—I have four children. I am pretty sure I could change diapers with my eyes closed at this point. I have (fortunately and unfortunately) become the most progressive and talented multitasker around. There are moments when I'm cooking dinner, responding to a work email, quizzing a kiddo on their times tables, getting another one off their time out, taking my turn in Candyland, and nursing a baby at the very same time.
It's a lot.
Do I deserve a pat on the back? No. I'm just doing what I need to be doing to survive and to ensure that everything that needs to get done, well... gets done.
All I want you to realize is that I still need you. I need my people, my friends, my fellow moms,...